Sometimes, I wonder if there's any point.
Is there any point in looking for a full-time job?
Is there any point in even making an effort with the two jobs I do have?
Is there any point in working my butt off without any guarantee it's going to pay off?
Is there any point in having this blog?
I want a purpose, a motivation to continue on, something to work toward. I work so hard and don't receive feedback, positive or negative. I apply for positions but don't get so much of a "thanks for applying." I write, write, write but never know if anyone is reading. I'm constantly discouraged.
But I have to keep going. I have to believe that someone is reading, that someone out there will see my potential and give me a chance. I have to believe that despite this difficult predicament I have been in for almost a year now since my walk across that stage, there's a reason for it. If I was meant to find a career by now, I would have. If I was meant to move away to some faraway city and work for some big-time publication, it would have happened for me. My time is coming. I don't feel it yet, but I have to believe it's coming.
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if it makes you feel any better dear, the blogs i follow haven't been updating. i don't know why, but i read all the time (... when blogger notifies me)! you're an amazing person and i think all of the things that you do and have done are way better than what half of the world could do in their whole lives. you'll get there!
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